Have you ever worked your hardest at letting yourself go???

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Have you ever worked your hardest at letting yourself go??? So the hurricane is gone and now is the calm after the storm. I called the windshield company at 8am this morning to get my new windshield installed, I decided I am selling my car too. I feel like I am a hurricane, picking up speed the longer I am here in New England, finding more things to get rid of in my life. When I first thought about letting everything go it seemed pretty easy, everything seems easy in the thought process, right???!! Then I started the going through things what stays what goes and I started getting emotional………… that didn’t last long now I am on a cleaning spree!!!! Everything goes nothing stays.

Over the weekend I was able to travel out to Brimfield to a welcome home party for a horse that was at work for 45 days after the tornado. His family had lost EVERYTHING. It’s easy to say those words, lost everything, but until I was standing on a hill that was once a plush forest and now a stump ridden field I didn’t realize what EVERYTHING truly was. This family had no idea that in 45 seconds everything material they owned would be gone, I can’t even start to fathom that. I have been plotting my departure since……hummmm….well I guess since Jan of this year. I may have not know what my avenue of departure was but I knew I wanted to let go of material things and find me, the real me. I guess whether its a tornado, hurricane, a bad relationship, or just plain curiosity to see the world, it’s all kind of the same.

I am officially packed to leave, I have one bag and a back pack. My mom is so cute she just keeps saying “This is all you are brining for one year???”, well that’s all I really can bring. Trust me, I am that person who brings 15 pairs of shoes for a week-long trip, one style for every outfit, this time I am bringing one pair of heels, sneakers and flip-flops. Perhaps walking a mile in someones shoes is a good idea but what happens if I am better off barefoot? I guess we will find out. So since this hurricane came whirling through I have to wait till Thursday 7am to fly out , and in the mean time I am finding more and more junk to depart with. I am not just talking material junk either. Storms cleans the soul, and year-long voyages clean the emotional garden too as well. I have cleaned house on the people I will stay in touch with, and those I will let the time wither them away like unwatered plants. I don’t feel the need to rip them from my garden, I just know that once I depart, I will no longer have the effort to keep them nurtured and learn I was all along the one who kept these relationships alive at my cost.

Well, with this beautiful sun kissing my face and making my cheeks rosy for the day, I venture off to see what else I do not need to carry with me in the excitement of leaving. Every morning when I wake,  I have no idea what this world has planned for me, and me being a planner to every min of the day, it feels pretty freeing……………………………………………..

 

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About 365daystofindme

I am giving myself 365 days to find me, and figure out some of my life questions. I am leaving for an adventure of a life time and will blog everyday to share it with my readers. Please feel free to add your own comments or thoughts, I LOVE to laugh too!!! Thank you for taking a moment to read them, and I hope you enjoy them as much as I enjoy sharing them. Cheers!!

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  1. It was a bit sad without you at work today, but you are speading your wings for something that is a better fit for you. Be the shining star you want to be, Kate, and don’t let anything stand in your way. I can’t wait to see what your tomorrows will bring. Best wishes on your new adventure. I’ll miss you!

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